Distilled thoughts

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH FUCK YOU!!!!!!!



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im in a bad mood right now. i dunno im beginning to think im manic depressive. i keep thinking back to when i was a little kid and how much fun life was. i miss those days so much i feel like crying. back before everything got complicated. when freinds were freinds forever. back before i knew that true love didnt exist and that everyone dies someday. i dnno i just cant help wanting something more. my life just seems so unordinary, so average. all my life ive read about heroes having adventures and getting the girl and saving the day. im not saying i want to be indiana jones, but i wish something exciting would happen to me. movies are such a letdown. i dont even know what group i fit in to anymore. the baddasses are all pussies, the "punks" are all posers the populars are too dumb and the athletes can kick my ass. im freinds with most everyone but i mean id like to be loved or feared, which i am neither. i am simply void space. the songs behind blue eyes by the who (i have the limp bizkit version) and glycerine by bush have been on repeat for an hour. a few lines stuck out to me for exampleNo one knows what it's like
"To feel these feelings/Like I do/And I blame you/No one bites back as hard/On their anger/None of my pain and woe/Can show through/But my dreams/They aren't as empty/As my conscience seems to be" i dnno it just sounds like it fits. if your reading this, sorry.